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It’s my birthday!

(As well as, Caralyn’s Wedding Day & Fr. Dan’s Marathon too!!)

Those of you who know me personally already understand that

I LOVE my birth DAY!

But even more so this year!

Because it provides me ONE full DAY to partake in all manners of my 2023 Word of the Year:

MERRY!

Yes, there will be great merriment today!

Some quiet & some loud,

but regardless the volume level it shall be made

unapologetically!!!

Traditionally, in the days or weeks leading up to my birthday I will take time to look back on what has occurred over the course of the past year of my life. I look through my journal writings from the previous year to discover: What great moments have I experienced? What was postponed? What new knowledge have I gained? What was lost? More importantly what should I take with me into this next year?

THIS year’s re-examination was exceptionally rich with collected wisdom & self-discovery!

As a consequence, MY BIRTHDAY WISH is that perhaps by sharing some of it today there’s a nugget of wisdom YOU are meant to receive too! Just like a piece of the cake, if you will. Which is exactly why I will be praying for YOU as I blow out my 2023 birthday candles!

Dear Birthday-Self,

Not long ago I remember asking myself “Can life get any better than this? WILL life get any better?” It’s been quite a process for me to answer this question fully. Despite the brokenness of the World and yes, even within my own family unit, it actually is better! Over the course of this past year Cuppycake and I have deepened our commitment to one another, we’ve grown in our prayer life and my personal relationship with the Lord is deeper than ever and my hunger for God’s Word is the greatest it has been in 50+++++++ years. Yes, it has gotten better than I’d ever hoped for!

My wonderful Spiritual Director & a friendly therapist clarified how, sometimes painfully, we realize that our sufferings, deep and wrenching at times, are an integral part of our story. After all, we must be ‘crucified with Christ’ (Gal 2:20) in order for Him to live in us. And, we see too, that the little things of life are also so very important, for nothing has been left untouched in our human experience and everything has been given a role to play in the reconciling of the world – all of creation and every human heart – back to God himself. And I have discovered that if I need to suffer a little bit – so that other’s are brought back to Him – I am strong enough to do so…for love of Him.

See what I mean? Truly, some BIG stuff pulled-together for me this year! Which I will undoubtedly carry into the next year, along with some other smaller (yet equally as life-giving) nuggets too. Here’s a few of my favorites…

*It isn’t my responsibility to rebuild a bond I didn’t break.

*I use to think drawing away from other’s and becoming introverted was because I liked being alone, but it turns out I just like being at peace. I am very extroverted when I am around people who bring me peace.

(Therefore,) if I become distant it is because I learned my place with you.

*So many people love me. God does not want me to focus on those who do not. Because that is not what He does. God loves us ALL. Equally. (Me too!) But He always gives us the free-will to choose what we want. We each have the freedom to choose Him or to choose what-ever else we love more in the World. (Me too!) We must give everyone the freedom to choose; accepting it is their free will, but we must at the same time move forward – reclaiming our own peace while continuing to love & pray for them. Made in His image & likeness – me too!

*The best conversations are the ones where you don’t have to worry about what you say, you can just be you. Turd and all. Giggles.

*Hold your eyes on God and leave the doing to Him. That is all the doing you have to worry about.

And if you do all of this dear Birthday-Self – at the end of the day your feet should be dirty, your hair messy, and your eyes sparkling! Which has been one of the best lessons of all!

These are the impactful lessons learned through an open heart guiding me more & more toward Him. I do hope anyone reading will please take as much as is helpful or discard what is not, as my personal birthday gift for you.…along with that slice of cake!