I will be brave!

It’s another Wednesday for Saint Maria Faustina KoWalska (what else,)

with a brief reflection on the Divine Mercy of God:

Speaking of Christian mercy, we are referring to acts which are morally good. Theology not only describes human acts, but also gives the criteria for their moral evaluation. Action (also human thought) plays an extremely important role in every human life for it shapes and forms one’s personality and attitudes, and influences the development of one’s spiritual life, or does the opposite – humiliating or degrading a person, and inhibiting his or her development as a human being and as a Christian. It is actions that speak about who a person is; they influence one for good or evil; they reveal one’s similarity or dissimilarity to the image of the Son of God. Every action leaves a trace in man, multiplying or reducing the good; this is why human choices, decisions and actions are so extremely important.” Beauty and Richness of Mercy p.28  

One of the many admirations I have for Saint Faustina (and truthfully ANY of the Saints) was her bravery.  I marvel at the ability to act on the ‘Will of God’.  There were critical moments, for all of them, to internally evaluate the choice God had presented.  Each circumstance, different and unique in their own lived-out life; yet, each were called upon to make a Choice for themselves.  And each, despite the doubt or difficulty involved, chose to take that brave step of trust!

God strummed upon their hearts in ways they eventually heard.

Have I been listening to the ways He has been speaking to my heart? These past two weeks God has presented me with 3 beautiful examinations (of conscious & heart,) to ponder.  Each of the 3 have been a ticker-tape display of thoughts billowing down and around.

#1 As I volunteered in a Ministry I am a part of I pondered: Do I use the gifts/talents God has entrusted to my care?  Do I use them wisely? Enough? Do I nurture them? Share them? Or have they grown stagnant?  Do I bravely claim them, use them, and glorify only God through them?

#2 Came as a result of recently spending some beautiful time with the relics of Saint Maria Goretti.  Her relics are currently on a tour throughout the United States for the first time as a Pilgrimage of Mercy, and Cuppycake & I spent some time with her during the scheduled stop in Columbus, Ohio.  IMG_6449(Amazingly our daughter also shared in this grace when her parish in Chantilly, Va hosted St. Maria’s relics & also our eldest son as her remains made their way to Atlanta!)  She is The Patron Saint of Purity and Forgiveness:  Have I forgiven all the harm done to me? To my loved ones? Have I forgiven myself for the ways I’ve failed to be His representative? Am I pure in thought and deed toward others and self? Do all my actions represent pure intention of glorifying only Him?  IMG_6462

#3 While at a movie theatre viewing WOODLAWN:  (God can be so imaginative and present Himself just about anywhere our hearts have been left open.) Several lines strummed my heart-strings but it all began with, “Sometimes old dreams must die for new ones to begin.” What HAVE I been dreaming of, Lord? Have I held on too long to dreams not meant to be fulfilled? Have I missed the ones You desire for me to complete? Will I trust you enough to believe this messy, sometimes cruel, all-the-while wonderful life You have given me has been a portion of what is necessary, to reach “The Real Dream” of being with You one day in Heaven?

And suddenly I feel brave.

Because My heart sums it all up for me…

#1 Love what has been given to you. (For if YOU love who God has created you to BE…gifts, lumps, bumps & all…you will generously give yourself away…unapologetically!!) Because God must love it…it was His GIFT for you!

#2 Love beyond measure. (Thoughts but especially deeds and no matter the cost to you! God will never forget what you have forgiven.)

#3 Above all things…Love! (Even that which dies away must be cherished and loved for it has brought you to where you stand today.  And it is what will lead you to where you wish to go…)

And so, I have written this 5 word message in my phone to look at in those moments I lack courage…

“Today I will be brave!”

Won’t you join me?

hugs n’ blessings to everyone stepping into their brave shoes! 

Morning Prayer from the Liturgy of the Hours today was a beautiful affirmation He is speaking, (as He does everyday)…

and bravely I practiced listening!

My commandment is this:  love one another as I have loved you.” ~Antiphon 1

There is no greater love than to lay down your life for your friends.” ~ Antiphon 2

You are my friends, says the Lord, if you do what I command you.” ~Antiphon 3

Psalm 63:2-9

A soul thirsting for God!

“O God, you are my God, for you I long;

for you my soul is thirsting.

My body pines for you

like a dry, weary land without water.

So I gaze on you in the sanctuary

to see your strength and your glory.

For your love is better than life,

my lips will speak your praise.

So I will bless you all my life,

in your name I will lift up my hands.

My souls shall be filled as with a banquet,

my mouth shall praise you with joy.

On my bed I remember you.

On you I muse through the night

for you have been my help;

in the shadow of your wings I rejoice.

My soul clings to you;

your right hand holds me fast.”

psalm 62:5

a visit to my interior castle. (in search of the) Divine Mercy in my soul.

my guide: st. faustina.

791  Hide me, Jesus, in the depths of Your mercy, and then let my neighbor judge me as he pleases.

792  I must never speak of my own experiences.  In suffering, I must seek relief in prayer.  In doubts, even the smallest, I must seek only the advice of my confessor.   I must always have a heart which is open to receive the sufferings of others, and drown my own sufferings in the Divine Heart so that they would not be noticed on the outside, in so far as possible.  I must always strive for equanimity, no matter how stormy the circumstances might be.  I must not allow anything to disturb my interior calm and silence.  Nothing can compare with peace of soul.  When I am wrongfully accused of something, I will not explain myself; if the superior wants to know (195) the truth, whether I was in the right or not, let her find out from others rather than from me.  My concern is to accept everything with a humble inner disposition.

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(unshakable) hugs n’ blessings!

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

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As I mentioned in the Page description of the Menu on my toolbar entitled Divine Mercy,  I spent the past year (2014) reading the entire Diary of St. Faustina (Helena) Kowalska. I hope to spend this next year writing on my personal reflections from that experience and some of the many individual life lessons I took away from this.

This will be my first reflection piece from that experience…

When I began this committment I knew it would be important for me to stay organized, so that I could track my obligation to read 5 entries per day.  (Yes, my God gifted me with a few anal-retentive tendencies; however, I prefer to acknowledge that He simply designed me to be “efficiently organized.”)

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A selection of entries from the Diary of St. Faustina

As I began reading through her beautiful Diary I knew I would need a way to track & monitor my daily reading commitment. I was inspired to scribble in the sidebar of my copy of the  Diary the month (listed at the top) & the day (written directly below this) at the beginning of each day’s commitment.  So…the number 3, Day 23; represented March the 23rd as my reference point. The following day’s commitment would then be scribbled at the start of the next “5 entry” series and so on.  This pattern quickly proved to work well because it afforded me the ability to always stay on track with a concrete reference point! (Especially with my ever-aging memory!)

On the random occassion, when unexpected situations prevented me from that particular day’s 5 prescribed readings, (yes I must admit that there were infrequent times when I would need to make up for a 2 or 3 day commitment at one sitting!)  I could still easily reference my self-prescribed obligation!  Also, by mapping out each day’s 5 entry logs, I gave myself the opportunity to look back for those entries which really impacted me, or perhaps tied into reflections I would later make in the days or months that lay ahead.

There was a great calm in the orderliness of it all.  And as I begin this year (2015) of personal reflection on the many graces I’ve been given from having read the Diary, there is a fondness in seeing the scribblings of the date when these moments impacted my life & created change for me.

These dates remind me that we truly do not know the hour, the time, or the place, when God’s hand will reach out and transform our hearts with the message he has in store for us. In the writings of Matthew, Chapters 24 & 25, he reminds us we must always watch for Him…

“Watch therefore, for you know neither the day nor the hour.” Matthew 25:13

When I began the commitment to read St. Faustina’s Diary I had no idea what lay in store and the multitude of messages my God would convey to me. Yet, He knew all along!  And thumbing through the Diary yet again…I am in awe of the grace and mercy He has shown me.  And I embrace where-ever it is He is now leading me in my visitation of this past year’s journey.

On the 29th day of January I read one of the more impactful entries for myself  (each entry made by Saint Faustina is carefully documented numerically.) This particular entry influenced my entire experience with reading the Diary.  (Saint) Faustina wrote this entry herself on the 1st of January in 1937 and I used it often to carry & focus me throughout each month of 2014 and still today.  (See my Post entitled, Inner Silence; which is a reflection on entry 162, found in her personal Diary on page 77.)

Ultimately, St. Faustina’s Diary is the record of her life experience –the journey of her soul.  She was graced by a special communion with God, and the Diary expressed her conviction that this communion ought to be the center of our lives.

Each of us have the ability to experience the power of the Blood and Water that poured out from the Heart of Jesus as a fount of mercy…for us.   We must learn to trust in this mercy so that it may help us to find the confidence and peace in the ever-present love of God.

 755 O my Jesus, teach me to open the bosom of mercy and love to everyone who asks for it.  Jesus, my Commander, teach me so that all my prayers and deeds may bear the seal of Your mercy.

hugs n’ blessings!